I need to write. I've been wanting to write. I was going to pull up an old draft from a year ago and finish that. Then I was going to write my Lyme story. But shit has been CrAzY. It's hard to focus and find the energy to write; things have been extremely hard to wrap my head around, but I do believe there is a silver lining to this story! Or better yet an ending!
I find myself in the same predicament as I did two years ago. Homeless. NO not really. I have a place to stay but I do find it ironic how history is repeating itself. I don't ever remember a time period where my own personal history was on rewind. I just knew there had to be a reason for this and if I am right, which I know I am at this point, this is HUGE for me! There's a quote by Winston Churchill, "Those who fail to learn from history are condemned to repeat it." Well yeah, that happened.
Now why would history repeat itself for me? It's been trying to tell me something!!!!
I went on vacation to Hawaii. Maui. It was perfect and very needed. Naturally curly hair, bikinis, a tan, no makeup, being out of my element, everything that would have made me crazy a few sick, anxiety ridden, years ago, had nothin on me. I have never been to Hawaii, let alone any real vacation. Most "vacations" consist of me flying home to visit my family in Cleveland. It was beautiful and I was pain free! Over the last few months my health had been declining and I had suspicions that mold was the culprit. The whites of my eyes swelled up every single day, my muscle pain was back, I was tired, could not focus and write, all I wanted to do was sleep. I went to the allergist, my immune system is still going crazy, I'm highly allergic to the world, although I don't feel that way right now which is odd.
|I wish you could see the huge red splotches better|
I knew I was exposed to toxic mold in my previous home and I assumed my belongings and other environments where I frequent had been causing my symptoms. My plan was to throw nearly everything I owned away and wash all my clothes in Borax. I did that, then went to Hawaii!
|Cleaning and getting rid of shit|
|Washed clothes then covered in garbage bags|
|View from the porch|
Where, let me just say this again...I was pain free and felt HEALTHY! Upon my return, 2 days in my home I had severe pain in my back, I felt sick and could not do anything, ANYTHING. This led me to an epiphany and I knew I had to leave, so I did and I am starting to feel better already. :) My guess is that the tick tick ticking I hear above my bathroom is a water leak. Toxic mold is real and it can make you very ill. I've been out of my house for a few consecutive days and already seeing massive improvements!
Although I feel displaced and it's going to be hard to move right now, I am very lucky that I have somewhere that I can go in the meantime and training clients pulling through for me yet again. I'm really lucky. History will not repeat itself again.
I saw my new doctor yesterday and he thinks I'm right. ALSO we both feel as though my Lyme disease is under control!!!!!!!! I am off antibiotics!!!!!!! We are going to see how my immune system is working and start treating mold. This is my protocol:
Mycotoxicosis Illness/Lyme disease remission (yup I said it)
-All my millions of supplements 2x a day (active b's, vit c, Liver Care, vit d, fish oil, quercetin, probiotics, things like that)
-Terry Naturals Glutathione 3-5x a day
-Charcoal 2000mg 2x a day
-Rice bran extract 1 spoon full a day
-Cholestyramine 1 packet 2x a day
-Green tea extract (epigallacatechin gallate) 500mg 3x a day
-Infra red sauna
-Might start a lil heated yoga
-Constitutional Hydrotherapy- This is really interesting! I have never heard of this. I have never heard of this! Research suggests amazing. 2x a week
-And NOOOOO antibiotics
Let's hope that my immune system does it's job and that my leaving the premises of toxic mold fixes me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy birthday to me It's becoming a reality.