You go into REMISSION.
The scary word that I've been neglecting to talk about. I truly want to presume that all the lil fuckers are gone, but the truth is, nobody really knows.
This is a really great book written by Dr. Richard Horowitz.
This book is meant for doctors to read, but anybody who struggles with their health should read it. There are a lot of people being diagnosed with mystery illnesses, such as Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, ALS, POTS, MS, Multiple Food Allergies & In-tolerances, Thyroid disease, Psychiatric disorders, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, and other Autoimmune conditions. If you have been diagnosed with any of these or have symptoms that mimic these conditions, there is a good chance you have Lyme disease or a co-infection of Lyme.
One thing I know is that I can do everything in my control to kill bacteria and once I am in remission, continue doing those things, forever! My LL is a freak about it, she had Late Stage Lyme disease herself, about 10 years ago. I know she's doing well today, because she is running a very busy practice in Seattle, and you can't do that with Lyme bacteria thriving. You know what else she does? Takes really good care of herself! She continues to eat healthy, keeps her body alkaline, and takes the necessary steps to NEVER, if one bug was left, let it thrive and spread. I am going to be the same way. Taking great care of myself prior to my diagnosis was a priority, but Lyme has taken my health to a new extreme and that's something that will always stick with me!
I've begun to start planning my new Lyme free future! I have so many exciting things I want to do. I have been sick for 5 years, treatment could last another 1.5-2 years. I've been feeling better so I'm already going to get the ball rolling, and here is what I'll be doing to better myself during the remaining parts of my treatment:
1. I'm going to start taking classes toward my new major of choice. I contracted Lyme about the the last quarter of my schooling for my associates degree. Even though I was able to take a few classes after that, it really put school on the back burner. When you can't read a sentence, how do you continue with schooling? What's fascinating, is that while sick for 5 years with Lyme, I was able to recognize what I am truly adept at... And guess what? There is no science and math involved!!
2. I'm going to focus on myself. I always thought I was an independent person and I am in many ways. One thing has always eaten at me though...I've relied on people in my relationships too much. I want to be self-sufficient. Nothing can set me up for this more, than what I've been through over the course of the last 6 months!
3. I want to fall in love. Romantic is a word that does not describe me, nor is it in my vocabulary, but Lyme disease has given me a great amount of love. A love for life that I have never had before, and why wouldn't I want to share that with somebody?!
4. I am going to work on me from the inside out. Healthy foods, trying new forms of exercise, making new friends, being alone and being ok with it, helping others, making change, remaining positive, trying things that scare me. I am going to be open and receptive to this world and all that it has to offer me.
5. Get strong! As strong as my body will allow me to get.
6. Keep only the people who deserve to be in my life...in my life. To hell with the others, life is too short.
Okay.......Here is what I'm gonna do when I get the all clear
1. Go to Hawaii! Vacation is not in my vocabulary nor is it something I've done in 12 years. So you can bet as soon as I'm feeling 100% I am going to Hawaii to celebrate. Or maybe travel across Europe?
2. Move. I have no idea where, but moving from Bellingham is something I've wanted to do since arriving in Bellingham 8 years ago.
3. Get new headshots, get an agent, and get back out there in the acting world. I dislike seeing my Lyme symptoms on my face in my current photos. I've got quite the acting resume built, it's now time to see what other challenging roles can be added.
|Not so tan|
4. Continue to advocate and spread awareness about Lyme disease. I'll speak for the people who are too ill to speak and march for the Lymies too disabled to walk. The Lyme community needs the continuing support, we are not there yet. We need to know that there is a cure and we need to be able to get properly diagnosed! Chronic Late Stage Lyme needs to be recognized and treatment needs to be affordable. This illness has changed my life forever and it's shaping me into somebody I never thought I would be. There are really low lows and amazing highs, stories need to be told, and hope needs to radiate.
5. Be the best person I can be, physically and mentally, and live life that way too. There is no doubt in my mind that I am going to be climbing mountains and doing back-flips off beams. Late thirties are gonna feel like early twenties. I like the person I'm becoming, I have a purpose in life, previous to Lyme I just freewheeled by.
Thanks girls, for taking a bite out of Lyme for me. I was unable to make it to my friends wedding in Cleveland...So this is what my girls did for me!!!! So awesome, I love them all.
Thanks for reading!